I recently decided to relocate my teepee from my front yard to my back yard. I realized I never used it in my front yard, b/c I simply don't like hanging out there where the cars drive by. I'm not sure why it took me so damn long to figure this out, but I'm so glad I did. I have spent just about every spare moment I have since it's been up, in it. I'm kind of sad its raining today just b/c I want to be out in it.
It's funny b/c James and I started working on building it 3 days in a row and each time we failed at getting the main structure stable. I kept getting frustrated and just stopping. Finally, the 4th attempt worked. Ive built two other ones and never had any issues. I guess it was all about right timing. It finally started coming together, and its my favorite one Ive made so far. Ive outfitted it with my crystals, favorite sticks Ive collected over the years, and other trinkets.
We've spent lots of time in it reading, hanging out with Bella & Violet, giving them massages, gazing at the full moon through the branches, listening to the birds, listening to music, watch the clouds, doing crafts, just laying there, drinking whiskey. Ha ha. Like I said, Ive spent every free moment the past several days in it.
I adorned my outside space with all the scraps Ive cut off all the bell bottoms that are too long for me. Which is just about all of them. Ive been saving the scraps forever for just the right project. This area is slowly coming together. Two friends gave me some rad old windows that I'm still figuring out just where I'm going to keep them.
Lots of reading the Bohemian Collective Magazine has happened in it too! ha ha. While I was making the bell bottoms garland above I heard some ruckus in the trees behind me, and turned to see an OWL flying from branch to branch. I watched it dart to the ground twice to catch something, although I don't think he got what he was going after. I have never seen an owl in the wild before. Only heard them in the night. My jaw was hanging wide open. I took the risk of running inside to grab my binoculars to get a better look and I'm so glad I did. He stayed on the same branch while I ran inside, otherwise I probably wouldn't of been able to spot him again b/c he blended in so well in the trees. It was the most magnificent thing Ive ever seen. I got watch up close all its crazy head movements. There were a few times it heard me moving and put its eyes right on me. I got to watch it for about half an hour!
This happened on the day of the Full Moon in Scorpio, which is just so appropriate, with owl having ties to the moon and to scorpio energy. Such great messages came through this beautiful witness. Leading up to this day, my week was a wreck. We had a really big emotional decision to make about my parents house, and I had to let some people that I really love down, and it hurt my heart so much to come to terms with this choice. I found myself at a crossroads recently. I thought it was just a crossroads with my parents house and what to do with it, but I realized it was a metaphor for the crossroads of my life. I was at the cross roads of continuing to live in the past, or to let go in a big way and move on ahead to my future. It was a painful decision, but I chose my future. I'm ready. I'm ready to move on. To let go with ties keeping me bound to my parents house. Let a stranger move in and walk away. Allow this to be a big blessing in my life to dream of things I may never otherwise be able to attain.
It was the first time since I can remember feeling like I made a choice that defined my life, and myself as well. In what I was capable of. Emotionally. I felt an weight lift, and a shift in my heart. Something was very tangled in that choice. And we still have so much go through before the house is actually sold and gone, but I felt like I took the first step on the beginning of a new path, and good god it feels amazing.
After the Owl visited me, we went to town and a turkey flew across the road right in front of our car. Owl & Turkey have been two of my messengers for quite some time, and this full moon, they made themselves very up close and in my face in brand new ways, and I couldn't be more thankful for them. Sometimes I really believe my parents speak to me from beyond the dead through the animal world.