The books I found at our local thrift shop the other day.  I was completely in awe that these were sitting on the shelf (among a hundred more) in a shop in our little town.  And the best part, they were all between $1.50 to $3 + 25% off.  Score!
The new books put my piles of books next to my bed over the edge.  It was becoming a bit unbearably messy, so I stole James bookshelf and moved it to my side of the bed.  It feels so good to have all my books (well, the ones I'm currently into, there is a whole other bookshelf in the other room) in my little bedroom corner, since that is where most of my reading happens.  I was having a good laugh with my friend last night at dinner about the fact that just a few years ago, I thought I didn't like to read.  My whole life, I thought books were for the birds.  Until I realized, I was a bird.  Hello, I love them!  I just don't like novels.  Call me crazy, but I'd rather get into my own head then someone elses.  Im probably missing out on alot, and one day Im sure this will change...
Visit.  My adventword for last weekend.  I pulled it on Saturday morning which was perfect b/c I was on my way to a family party.  So I kept this word for two days.  And visit I did.  We had a family cocktail party, a tradition my great grandparents used to have.  It ended up being like a family reunion, and 64 people came!  I got to see cousins I forgot I had b/c I hadn't seen them since they were babies, and now they are full grown adults.  Crazy.  It was kind of weird, seeing my cousins who are in high school all gathered around the table having a great time talking and being silly... I found myself on the outskirts of that circle.  I realized then that I have officially graduated from the kid table to the adult table.  Although I usually mingle with older peeps better in general, it was odd to see the transition before my eyes.  I guess at 30 I can consider myself an adult, huh?  I just don't feel like it most of the time.
My way of giving myself some self love when I was feeling sick.  I took a long hot bath and burned some incense and listened to my yoga mix.  It was very relaxing and just what (my inner) doctor ordered.
A little gift wrapping I have been doing this week for the holidays.  Four days until christmas and Im still wondering what to do for a few people.  I'm really wanting to change my holidays traditions in my family.  At least in my own little family at home (me and James) since I know my whole family wouldn't have much to do with these changes... 
Miss Violet Mae has been sleeping in the bed alot the past few days.  It started the night before last when the winds of change were howling outside all night long.  She was scared and slept in bed with me all night long, which she never does.  And even during the day, she has decided she does not much like the cold weather, and prefers to be snuggled up next to warm floral blankets and teddy bears... I can't blame her.
I myself have found snuggly sweaters and sweatpants to be the norm at home right now.  All I wanna do is curl up on the couch next to a fire and read... and sip on whiskey and ginger beer.  Sounds good right?
Accept.  This was the adventwindow word I pulled the other morning, right after being almost in tears b/c I realized how behind I was on things I had signed up for.  I realized at that moment, I needed to accept where I was, right then.  And beyond just those thoughts I was having, but accept where I am in life, fully.  And then not only accept, but fully embrace.  Accept my body.  Accept the quietness from friends.  Accept my own quietness.  Accept my past.  Accept my challenges.  Accept others with all of their own pasts and challenges.  This is a big word. 
My sweet Bella, glad to be home after a day at the vet.  She is sitting next to me on my computer desk as I type this.  She is my sweetest little friend.

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Yesterday, for 12.12.12 I cleaned my house from head to toe.  Cleaned things I don't normally clean, like the microwave (yuck)... A good deep clean.  It always feels so good.  I felt like I needed my home front to have a fresh start along with all of the energy going around us during this high vibrational time.  I set some intentions in my mind for myself, some new beginnings Id like to create for myself.  Some deep healing and transforming for my year ahead.  Things Ive been reaching for, grasping for, but having no energy to dive into.  I finally found myself feeling excited and ready for the internal changes ahead.  Prepared to face them with less fear on the forefront, which I have only been using as a wall, a shield.  Im ready to break those walls down and create a new freedom inside myself. 

This morning, on this new moon, I started my period and woke up sick with the beginnings of a soar throat.  Im absolutely grateful for it.  Didn't think I'd ever hear myself say that.  But I am.  Being sick, for me at least, is usually a catalyst to treat myself with alot of self love, and prioritize what I put in my body, when I would normally not care as much.  I like to try to heal myself as naturally as possible and avoid going to the doctor at all cost if I can.  So far so good for the past several times Ive gotten sick, or felt like I was getting sick.  Ive been able to smash it all together, or dramatically reduce it so it doesn't come on full blown.  I think it was very fitting that I woke up sick this morning.  A little push forward to detox and release a bit. 

My typical combinations when Im feeling like Im going to get sick are this: tons of water.  apple cider vinegar with grapeseed extract and terra shield ei (although i couldn't find it anywhere today!).  emergen-c. vitamins. green tea with lemon, ginger & raw honey (lots of it).  garlic.  juiced fresh fruits and veggies.  I also just started using good earth living's echinacea and rosemary tinctures.  that's about it.  well, and taking it easy, not over doing it, or just resting all together.  

Today we had errands to run, and it felt so good to be able to leave the house on the first day of my period.  I have always had really bad ones, and for the past 5 months, they have not given me any problems.  Im not sure what changed, besides introducing certain essential oils during the week leading up to it.  Im not sure if that could do it, but it's literally the only thing that has really changed.  I didn't even get a migraine this month, and that is a first!  I'm really hoping my body is regulating itself out.  Taking care of myself naturally through these things has been a long learning process.  I had alot of help a few years ago from my boss, but since leaving, Ive had to figure things out on my own, which has been a really great thing to have to do. 

This week I started along with Messy Canvas's adventwindows project, Come Thou Long Expected.  It was originally for the month of december, but I came late to the party, like I usually do, so I just jumped on, and quickly realized this could be done at any ol' time.  I saw my friend Rain doing it and it looked intruiging, and Im loving it so far.  You should totally check it out.  These are my first 4 days of words I pulled.  The first 3 days I journaled along with the word (only two shown).  Yesterday's word, breathe, I just did.  It's been fun to dive into a solitare word each day. 

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