LAST FULL MOON OF 2020

Last night was the last full moon of the year, in my own sun sign, Cancer. Most new + full moons I make sure to set aside some extra time to soak in the tub for some deeper going within. I slipped into the water (where I feel most connected to self + spirit) with some Ritual Chai Tea from Gnat + Bee, a Blue Lotus Caviar herbal smoke from Sacred Smoke Herbals (15% off with LAURA), my Full Moon essential oil roller, a Shapeshifter incense cone from Smoke + Sage, a shot of whiskey b/c I was feeling extra, my gratitude journal, some lit candles including that lavender rolled honey candle from Once Upon A Willow Tree, and my favorite deck, Medicine Woman Tarot.

The messages came through clearly + some releasing began. I made a list of things I would love to release moving forward into the new year that I will burn with James tomorrow evening. New Years Eve we always create space to share things we want to release with each other + then burn them one by one in the fire. It allows us to check in with ourselves + with each other. It’s a beautiful heart check in each time we do this and we honestly shouldn’t wait for just the new year to do it.

Do you have any full moon or new year rituals you love to do?

I’d love to hear about them if so…

Full Moon ritual video

STUDIO SNEAK PEEK

The past two months I have been renovating my studio space from the ground up.  It's one of the most exciting redo's to a room Ive ever done, and if you have followed me for a while, you know I rearrange and redecorate alot!  Here are a few sneak peeks while I put the final touches on before sharing the whole room.  I finally really feel at home in my studio and actually enjoy every moment spent in it.  I decluttered so much from all my jewelry designing, and now it's primarily my magazine creating space, but with all my jewelry supplies tucked away for easy access.  It's a dream come true space and I can't wait to share the whole thing!!!

Follow my instagram @lauramazurek and the hashtag #laurasstudiomakeover to see more sneak peeks.

SACRED SPACE // NOVEMBER

It has been some time since I have shared my sacred space here on the blog.  During this last full moon I created a new space in my home for my intentions and questions.  This space has moved around my home so many times, but change like this always feels good and moves the energy around, so I love it.

As you may have gathered from my blog over the past month I have had some deep emotional things that have been on my heart.  And alot of synchronicity has been showing up for me.  I kept having dreams about bats, so I looked them up in my Animal Speak book and learned they are associated with the Tarot card, The Hanged Man, so I pulled the card out of my Medicine Woman deck, which in that deck its titled Vision.  Then the next day, on the full moon I did a 3 card spread with my Earth Magic deck and the first card I pulled was Vision Quest, essentially the same card.  And its an intense card.  I won't go into all it meant for me, but it was cool pulling both of those cards in unison.  For months now I have been pulling the same cards over and over and over again and I'm beginning to see a real pattern in the answers, its been a really amazing experience.

I added a few other animal elements that have been speaking to me through my dreams, including peacock and turtle.  I didn't have anything the represented the frog or he would be up there too.  Also a few stones Ive been working with for a while including shiva lingum, lapis lazuli and a selenite that was recently gifted to me.

Creating space for time and intention to go within has been such a good experience for myself and my personal growth and emotional healing. 

Oh, and and fun animal experience I had this week was getting to see a porcupine in person up close!  We were out at my parents house having some dirt dumped to fix the driveway, and while James was waiting for the guy to arrive, I went down the driveway to go walk around a bit.  I spotted a tree I had never really paid attention to before and was so drawn to it.  I walked up closer and was just in awe of the leaves that had turned yellow and the amazing knotted roots of the tree.  It is one of the most magnificent trees.  I was standing there in awe of it and then I looked up and right above my head was a porcupine in the tree!!!  At first it spooked me b/c I was not expecting to see that, but I quickly realized from his body language that I did not need to be afraid.  He was in his own little slow world.  For the most part he was just taking a nap, but at one point I did get to see him slowly move around and even get up and scratch his belly.  It was the cutest thing I have ever seen.  I felt like a child in magical amazement over this creature.  It felt so intimate, something I knew I may never experience again in this lifetime.  The only time I have ever seen a porcupine is either dead on the road (sadly) or scurrying into the bushes at night.  He was so cute.  So cute.  Im honored I got to experience him and learn a little more about this creature.  Just the night before I was excitedly showing James a few porcupine quills I had just received in the mail that I'm going to use for a project, so that was another fun synchronicity. 

STUDIO SHELF + EMOTION RIVER

Today was my first day in a week I have had the house all to myself.  My friend Katelyn and her family came to stay with me this past week, and it was full of not only good and fun moments, but also lots of heartache, sick babies, and tension.  Sometimes life is just that way, and knowing that you can be friends through those tough moments is a wonderful feeling.  It was not the best time for either of us and I'm pretty sure there were quite a few moments we both wanted to run and hide in a corner due to outside stresses.  But we fought our way through the obstacles of the week, got our photoshoots done, had many heart to hearts, had to time to be together alone for one day which was the first time that has ever happened, made lots of really yummy homeade food, and more.   

It is also the week of my moontime and I am highly sensitive and emotional right now.  Really I have felt this way for a while now.  I feel like each time I come to my blog I leave hints of it behind, but don't really feel like going in depth, or showing my true feelings, b/c honestly it's pretty dark right now.  I'm going through alot of my own shadowlands, dealing with letting go, death, relationship, wounds, and more.  I am in my own wintering, a deeper transformation, yet another layer of my being that is screaming to be shed.  I read little momentos all over the web that say, just let go of your past, be in the now.  But I am finding that very hard.  I feel there are wounds in me that I have turned my head to for far too long, and if I don't go in there and excavate them now, they are only going to bury themselves deeper in my spirit, which is feeling a bit numb right now b/c it knows the road ahead is the wild unknown.  I am learning that true healing is not a matter of just looking the other way and letting things heal themselves, b/c for me, they don't.  My family history has taught me to look the other way, and I cannot do that anymore.   

The feeling of missing the boat keeps creeping in, but I just keep reminding myself of the line in my birthchart that tells me there is never a boat to be missed.  It is all in divine timing, and what I do not know yet, I do not know for a reason.  I think we are so complex as humans that if all of the things we are here to learn on this earth were given to us all at once, would just spontaneously combust or something.   

Anyway... having some me time this morning, with the rain outside... I decided to put on some Doc Watson and rearrange in my studio a bit to make it come alive again.  This is a necessary and frequent thing I must do for myself to keep my creativity alive.  I put this wooden shelf on my desk a little while back and for the most part is was just for function.  I had most of my utensils and stuff on it, but everytime I looked at it, it kind of depressed me.  I love the shelf, its one my dad made just for his powders for his pottery.  I decided to take everything down and rearrange all of my utensils among things that make my heart come alive.  It is now the perfect blend of function and soulful beauty.  I also hung my two new prints of Dylan and Janis I got from Earthbound Trading.  I love these two photos of them, the one of Dylan looks like my dad, and the one of Janis looks like my aunt.  This space feels alive to me again.   

Thank you solitude.  Thank you rain.  Thank you Doc.  Thank you special momentos.