NOVELLA ROYALE

March 30, 2013 Laura Mazurek

Today's outfit post is brought to you from my lovely iphone. This is what I wore to celebrate my aunt's birthday the other night. I finally hemmed my Novella Royale pants. I was so afraid I would mess them up that I stalled for over a month! But I finally got the courage to just do it myself and they came out perfect! Woo hoo! Im pretty much head over heals for them and wish I could afford these, and this jumper. Total heart swoon. She is my number ONE favorite designer. It took me two years to finally allow myself to splurge on a pair, and Im so glad I did!

This outfit is full of my favorite designers. See them all below. (I absolutely love the gypsies caravan earring paired with the spirit tribe earring)

outfit details: bell bottoms - novella royale // shirt - handmade by me // sweater - f21 // purse - christi jay // boots - bcfootwear // wood gauge earring - gypsies caravan // feather earring - spirit tribe // rose quartz necklace - soulmakes // coyote tooth necklace - roots and feathers // onyx ring - gifted from spirit y sol // moon ring - laurel hill

I love this photo of Aiden and James. While we were waiting at a restaurant, Aiden started putting his hands in his pockets (which took him about a whole minute, quite the task) and said I want to be like uncle James. Then he went and stood next to James just like this. It was the cutest thing in the world!!! My heart melts just about everytime he says the words 'uncle james'. And right now he says my name 'Auntie Waura'. Its so cute.

*james rad sweater is from zenthreads on etsy*

A NEW RAD GIVEAWAY FROM SPIRIT TRIBE IS NOW LIVE FOR A CUSTOM DREAM CATCHER.

THE CUTEST LITTLE RASCAL ALIVE

March 29, 2013 Laura Mazurek

This is my nephew Aiden. My favorite boy in the world. It has been such a rad thing to watch him grow into his own. And he is quite the little munchkin. A huge personality. He thinks the funniest thing in the world is farts (especially if he gets to land one right on you), and to tell little white lies, followed by the most insanely cute face saying 'nah... just kiddin'. Like father like son. My brother and him are two peas in a pod.

Almost everytime I see Aiden, he likes to play with my phone and take silly photos. So I thought Id share some of them here on the blog. He is the worlds best poser. You dont have to tell him a thing. Each time he hears the camera click, he strikes a new pose, ready for the next one. And yesterday we got to witness his 'shake yo booty' dance. It was hilarious!

We went out last night to celebrate my aunt's birthday (my mamas sister). And the restaurant of our choice was going to be a huge wait, so we went down the road for something else and it ended up being the perfect place for Aiden. They had peanuts all over the floor and the waiter said it was okay for Aiden to throw the peanuts. So, he got to throw peanuts at his uncle James across the table all night. He was delighted.

I love this little booger.

DADDY

March 25, 2013 Laura Mazurek

Last night as I was laying in bed I couldn't stop thinking about my daddy. (I drank hot chocolate before bed, so it was a long time before I fell asleep :) And for the first time in a long time, I was able to really think about him with a huge smile on my face. Not a face full of tears and heartache. Sometimes I honestly avoid thinking about him, b/c it just hurts so much. Memories came rolling in about the things he used to do. The silly way he was. My dad was a very silly man. He had the most insanely odd sense of humor Ive ever known in anyone. The things he made jokes out of would send most people running for the hills, and I loved it. He had so many little quirks. Little things he would do with his hands when he talked or was in a goofy mood. Little things he would do with his voice. He gave all of our cats the longest strangest 'pet' names. He was his own unique being, different from anyone Ive ever met. And the most creative person I will ever know. He oozed creativity.

He had very strong piscean energy. He had amazing, sort of other worldly characteristics and moods, a huge heart for the people he felt loved by and for animals, a gentle soul. As well as moments of desperate despair, self hate, and acting out in anger from deep buried childhood wounds. When I was younger it was rough around our house alot. Usually centering around my brother, and I grew up feeling an enormous amount of guilt that he was the one who endured the weak parts of my dad. There were periods of my life when I questioned whether or not my dad was a good man. I was confused by the contradictions of his sweet soul and his anger and distance at times. But I always knew he was a very good man with alot of hurt in his heart, and the hurt is what was showing when he showed those sides, and I felt so much empathy for him. And I share the same empathy for my brother who endured a much different life than I did. I have been a witness to watching both of these special men in my life, blossom into beings who I completely admire and respect for so many reasons. They have both shown me how to grow through adversity in a world that is not always equal for all. They have shown me that just because you have some really hard patches in your life, doesn't mean that is who you are, or who you have to remain. I am in complete awe of my brother who is holding down an amazing, highly intelligent job, and raising a five year old son all by himself. It's alot of work and he is doing it so well. He continually amazes me. My family has alot of women in it, and my dad and my brother are the two men who Ive had to look up to in my life, and I'm honored that its them.

Since my dad decided to take his own life, I have been buried with emotions of sadness, anger, guilt, emptiness. So many different hard to understand feelings. I felt a huge lightness come over me after releasing his ashes on new years eve. But still at times, I find myself overwhelmed with these feelings. I felt guilt for not being there for him as much as I should of after my mom died. I went through alot of my own craziness, twists and turns in relationships, and a general period of mistrust to the point I didn't even want to leave my house. I will always feel I should of hung out with him more, taken him out to do more things. I know I did. I did alot of things with him, but I still feel I could of done more. But at the same time, those few years after my mom died, was the closest I ever became with my dad. Before then, my mom was always the one I would talk to about personal things. And my dad actually became that person. It was a dynamic I never thought I would have with him. We talked on the phone alot, and he would tell me all about the relationships he was 'trying' to have, and I would tell him all about what was going on with me. Ill never forget the ways we were able to open up to each other during those 3 years. I actually got to witness my dad 'finding' himself. He was married to my mom for 26 years, and for the first time he had to learn what life was like alone, and actually face himself, his fears, and his regrets. And at the same time, learn what really made him tick, and what made him come alive. I literally saw him blossom before my eyes. And through the stretch we all had to endure of watching my mom die of cancer, he showed his love nature in the most amazing ways, one of which was hand crafting his own wifes coffin. He was a carpenter, and this was such a monumental moment for him to share his craft in this way. We were all so proud of him for being able to do it.

I will never stop being impressed with my dad. The way he lived his life doing what he loved with his hands. The way he would teach himself how to do something if he had no clue how to do it. His sense of humor. His love for music and friends. His love for his dog Noogs. The things he taught me growing up. His hardworking ways. So many things. I can still hear him calling me 'kiddo' in my mind. He was the only one that called me that. I hope that I can continue having more and more moments of remembering him with a huge smile on my face. I want to get past all feelings of anger and guilt so I can freely communicate with him without those walls Ive built.

My daddies life story is one full of heartache, trials and tribulations, love, learning, loss, creativity, goofyness, providing, enduring, expressing... the list goes. A very human experience for a being that was out of this world. I am so glad he was my dad.

CHRISTMAS CELEBRATIONS

December 28, 2012 Laura Mazurek

Some snippets from our christmas. I know Ive been posting alot of instagram photos as of late... Through not feeling well and being busy with the holidays, I haven't taken alot of real photos. So for those of you who follow me via instagram, sorry for all the repeats.

We went to my Nanna's house christmas eve to spend the night. We had a very nice dinner at my aunt's house. It was a great kickstart to hanging out with the family for the holidays. Good food, good music, good vibes. Christmas day was a little low key this year, as I think we were all a bit tired. I myself had a tummy bug or something that had lasted almost a week and was feeling super drained, so it may of just been me. But it was still a nice time with the family. Violet came with us for the first time in about 4 or 5 years. She acted the exact same way she did years ago. She was so pleased to be there and wagged her tail the entire time. When we first got there, we left her with Nanna's little dog while we went to dinner at my aunts, and when we came home we found her up in the back bed with all of her toys and a few of Amber's in bed with her. Just like I knew she would. The first christmas she spent at Nanna's, she took every baby that she and every other dog got for christmas and snuck them up in the bed with her. Little hoarding thief I have :) She does the same at home with her favorite babies. She has them all in a pile next to her bed in the closet. So so cute.

That evening we came home and vegged on the couch and watch Christmas Vacation, our yearly tradition. It never gets old. And I had some coffee in the cute owl mug my brother got me for christmas. And Bella was soooo happy we were home and got super silly with me on the couch. Oh, and James got me the Maryink sweater I wanted for xmas! Love it! And, I made my first batch of homeade granola for my cousin. Not the best, but Im excited to dig in and try new creations! And the wrapped present above was from my 5 year old nephew, sooo cute!

I hope everyone has been enjoying their holiday season. Im so looking forward to this new year. It is full of so many good vibrations and new visions. Can't wait to explore through it. Enjoy the full moon in Cancer today!

Today is my Nanna's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANNA! Feel free to leave her some birthday wishes below! xoxo