Soul searching for a moment >>>

Today (and the last few days) I really really really really miss my mom.  To the point where I feel like freaking out.  Although I know that will do me no good, so whats the point.  I just want to hear her voice, hug her, smell her, tell her how beautiful she is.  I miss my days with her so much.  I miss our talks.  She was always so good at bringing me out of a funk.  There are friends and family relationships in my life that are turning and changing, and it breaks my heart a little.  I wish I had her comfort.  I have so much comfort around me, Im truly blessed with amazing people in my life... but there is no other feeling in this world than the one that comes from your mom.  At least for me, I know this is not the case for many people, but for me, it is.  I find myself searching through the files in my brain, trying to hold on to a snip of her telling me something just to hear her voice in my mind.  But the harder I try, the harder it is to hear.  I think Im just feeling really unbalanced lately.  Too much work and not enough soul play.  I know this.  It just seems sometimes like Im never caught up.  But, just as I was freaking out to James the other night about how its getting to the point I cant do it all myself, an old friend shows up on my doorstep the next day and offers to help out possibly once a week, and go to yoga with me.  I know this is where I need to be.  I need to take better care of my body, and I need to allow myself to have help.  I like to think I can take on so much, but then at times it becomes exhausting.  

wow.  I think I really just needed to look within a bit more.  My body is telling me to slow down.  And to also take stock of the people in my life who want to be there just for me.  People who truly love me for who I am as a person, not as an artist, or as an emotional shoulder to lean on.  I like knowing I am a trusted friend that someone can come to when they need someone, but Im tired of only being called upon during those times.  Its time I really start paying more attention to that, and allowing myself to step away when I need to.  This is not just for friends, but for all people in my life.  

My heart is uneasy today, and I just really want my mom.  (insert a big pouty face)

PEACE,

Laura

Wye Oak + good friends >>>

Today is all about work - work - work!  But, I had to stop and eat lunch, so I thought post a little blog real quick while I do.  Last night we snuck off to Austin for a semi-impromptu visit with our rekindled friend Robin and went to watch Wye Oak play at the Parish.  Her adorable cousin works the lights there so we got in all VIP style, we felt suave.  It was a great show and watching her cousin doing the lighting was almost more awesome than watching the band - she does amazingly cool stuff.  We ate at our new favorite restaurant in Austin, Bouldin Creek Cafe, where our friend Katelyn took us last time she visited Texas.  And it just so happened to be two blocks up from Robin's house.  She goes there every morning for coffee!  So we walked to get some yummy vegan food before the show and had good conversation.  It was a great night.  We got home around 3:30, which is super late for us old farts.  So today Im doing the best I can to keep myself on track.  Only a few days left before I unveil this big exciting project Im working on... So, I should get back to it!  But, before I do, look at Violet's hilarious face I caught on film in the photo below!  Is that not so funny???

 James was so cute last night talking about how close we were to the capital (neither of us have been in it before)...  6th street was bustling when we got out of the show.  Its been so long since Ive been to a show right on 6th street I forgot how crazy it gets down there.  For only being 2 hours away, it is soooo different than where I live.  I love it. 

 Time to get back to it.  It feels like there is so much going on this week.  Im having to remind myself to breath and relax to get through it all.  One thing at a time... I. Can. Do. It.

 PEACE,

Laura

This weeks behind the scenes...

First of all, I want to say a big genuine thank you to everyone who left a comment on my last post for Violet.  The love was really felt.  She has been home since this morning, and is adjusting to being inside all day okay so far.  She has slept most of the day.  She doesnt seem to be acting like she is feeling really bad, so that made me feel better.  She was definitely happy to be home.  So thank you, and Ill keep you posted along the way!

We left our movie pallet on the floor from last weekend up all week.  Bella loves it.  There is a corner of the quilt that she just freaks out on out of nowhere, and gets all frisky.  Its so cute.  She was just looking way too adorable to not snap some photos of the other day.  Do you spy her daddy napping on the couch in the background?  he he.

Im kind of always snapping random photos around the house with my phone now.  Im a bit obsessed with my phone camera.  Ive collected a bunch of sticks for my dreamcatchers.  I love walking in the woods picking just the right ones.  And everytime I catch a glance at my mom's dreamcatcher, it makes me happy.  Its so big and beautiful.

We had to go back to the sprint store two more times this past week, so we went to our favorite coffee shop close by both times.  It was weird going there 3 times in less than 2 weeks b/c we usually only get to go every other month or so.  It was fun!  and yummy...  We are still in the middle of trying to figure our internet stuff out.  Our first bill was outrageous!  So we are debating, but not really getting anywhere with it.  So between that and little miss violet's vet bill, this month has been insanely expensive.  Not to mention, I think I broke our coffee maker this morning, and my car battery died again this morning.  This has not really been our week,  at all.

Fortunately, I had lots of things to package up and ship off.  I actually brought it over to the kitchen table so I could keep it organized.  I love having a nice clean space to ship from.  It drives me nuts when I have too much stuff going on and my desk is all messy and then I have to ship!  And I love my new feather stamp!  Im still waiting for my Roots and Feathers cards to get here, so for now everyone is getting Violet Bella cards :)

And, um.... I wore my Doors shirt again!  Can somebody please come over here and pry it off of me???  I could probably wear this shirt every day of my life and be happy.  And its made me realize how much I love grey.  And yep, Im wearing SAS shoes, no offense nanna, but they are old lady shoes, ha ha.  But i LOVE them!  They are so comfy!  And this necklace is about to be listed in my Roots and Feathers shop!

And we finally had our movie night with friends!  We watched Pulp Fiction, had yummy adult beverages and ate caramel popcorn.  Pretty perfect.  Jen, Jonny & Tia are some of our best friends.  We always feel so at ease when we are around them, and James talks more than Ive ever heard him talk in my life when he is around them, its so cute.  They are always up for any kind of adventure and have just about the sweetest hearts Ive ever known.  Love them.

My birthday is in one week, I just realized!  It will be my last year in my 20's!!!  Time to start planning a party!

PEACE,

Laura

Garage Sale Day

Our garage sale yesterday was a big success!  We sold most of the good stuff and I couldnt be happier with the outcome.  And my best friend did it with me, so it was like hanging out all day, minus the crazyness of it all.  But there were such sweet moments that made it much more than just a garage sale...

A friend of a friend brought some puppies to give away which made Isabel's day.  She was so thrilled to hold these puppies, it was the sweetest thing ever.

I love it when she makes this smile, but its even more cute right now b/c she is missing three teeth!!!

we had five tables full of stuff plus two racks of clothes and a huge blanket on the ground for more clothes...

Shelley's husband, her mom and my dad all visited with us for a while...

our very good friends came by with the whole family.  it was such a delight, they are all the sweetest people in the world.  the two younger daughters even bought stuff for themselves with their own saved money, it was the sweetest thing.  i was super excited that rose loved this old bunny painting i did, it was so her!

 

my adorable daddy!!!

and Xavier is almost to much cutest to handle right now.  he has decided to be my buddy and i just love it when he says my name.  his curls are to die for and his sweet personality is just amazing.

All in all it was a great day with great friends, and got us one step closer to our house dream coming true!

PEACE,

Laura