Book Inspired: Self Image >>>

Welcome to a new little series Im welcoming to my blog.  Book Inspired.  Do you ever read things that just really make you think and you just want everyone you know to read it too???  I do all the time, so I thought Id start sharing little tid-bits of reading inspired things, along with what it means to me.  Id love for these posts to be inspiring for you, so I invite you to leave in the comments what it may mean for you as well.  And if you feel you would like to do a whole blog post on the subject for this post, leave me a link in the comments so I can see!

Everyday for the past few weeks Ive been reading pages from the book Wisdom of the Ages (60 days to Enlightenment) by Wayne Dyer.  I highly recommend it to everyone in the world!  Today Im going to share the one on Self Image.  I read this one last night and it resonated with me deeply.  Ill start by writing the quote he highlighted in this post:

"This is the true joy in life:  The being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one.  The being a force of nature, instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.  I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community, and as long as I live, it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can.  I want to be thoroughly used up when I die -- for the harder I work, the more I live.  I rejoice in life for its own sake.  Life is no 'brief candle' to me; it is a sort of splendid torch which I have got hold of for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations."
~George Bernard Shaw (1856-1950)

The way this resonates with me...  The word self image goes so much deeper than how you see yourself in the mirror, what you wear everyday, or how you think you appear to the people who see you.  Ive been pondering alot lately to myself about the idea of whether or not I am fulfilling my little purpose here on earth.  After losing my dad, it has opened my eyes up so much to the idea that we as humans have this need inside ourselves to feel purposeful.  With my mom being gone, and both of his kids grown up and living their own lives, I think my dad really lost his sense of purpose in this world.  Not that he didnt have one, I think he just lost sight of it.  And as much as I know in my heart Im fulfilling my purpose of art, using my gifts that have been given to me to my fullest at this moment in my life to the best I know how, I still wonder.  I feel there is a much deeper purpose brewing inside me, and Im just not sure what it is.  Do you ever feel those wheels churning inside you, driving you towards something greater, but just not knowing what that is yet?  I guess Ill know when I get there, and along the way, Ill be keeping my eyes open as much as I can.  

As the quote above talks about being a force of nature, and not someone who sits around and complains wishing things in life were better for them... Dyer talks about how we all know people in our lives like this and its our choice to remove ourselves from situations where negativity and complaining take over the conversations.  And to catch ourselves when we are about to complain about how tired we are, or things we dont feel like doing, and to stop and say nothing instead... and eventually those feelings tend to lessen or disappear b/c we are not giving them any energy.  And to put energy into rejoicing in life for the sake of life itself.  And to ignore criticism.  He quotes one of my favorite Albert Einstein's quotes:

"Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds"

By allowing ourselves to break free from our own negativity or that placed on us by others around us, we can allow ourselves to open up to the ideas and possibilities that this world has for us.  It can drive the fear away from us, and all of the blocks we place in front of ourselves to keep from fulfilling our own life purposes.  Im happy I read this, as I think this is all something to strive for and work on daily.  And when I say life purposes, I think sometimes we (including myself) tend to get lost in the idea that this must be something big and heroic.  But I do believe that is far from the truth.  I think it is finding the things in this world that we truly enjoy, that in turn creates love and helps other people (physically or emotionally or spiritually or whatevs).  This could be being a mother, a writer.... really anything you can think of, whatever is true for yourself.  And it could be many many little things.

Thanks for listening to my ramblings and thanks to Wayne Dyer for putting together an awesome collection of thought provoking quotes and writings.  Im sure Ill be sharing alot from this book.

 PEACE,
Laura

Scrabble Wars >>>

We finally broke out the scrabble board in our new house for the first time the other night.  I cant believe it took us this long, but now its on!  We take our scrabble playing very serious in this house!  My cousin bought us this portable board a few years ago and its just about one of the best gifts Ive ever received.  For our first game in the house, James won!  He is so cute when he wins (which by the way this was only the 2nd time he has won - muah ha ha!!! - sorry babe, had to rub it in)  He does a little dance, and doesnt stop grinning the whole night long.  He sings songs about being the scrabble king.  He is adorably victorious.  But let me tell you, when he loses, he is a soar loser.  He is all mopey, its so funny!  So we duked it out the next night, and I won.  It was an intense game too!  *If you are to play scrabble on a cold winter night - hot chocolate is a must*


Bella always plays with us.  She went from being the score keeper to trying to play herself :)

Here it is James, for the record, you beat me by one point!!! 

SCRABBLE WAR IS ON!!!

PEACE,
Laura

Pieces of Home >>>

 1.  This is the sketch I did a few days ago for my next tattoo.  I wanted to make something special just for my daddy.  He was a carpenter, and he made a saw handle that looked just like this (which is a classic old school style saw).  I added two feathers to represent my parents together, and the bottom flower is suppose to be a mountain laurel flower, which holds special meaning for me.  And the most important thing my parents taught me, build love.

 2.  Speaking of my parents, I must say that the friends they left behind are a testament to how amazing they were.  All of their friends always made me feel like I was their friend as well.  And during both of my parents deaths, their friends were right there by our sides.  Today I received this quilt in the mail from a dear friend of theirs, with a note telling me it was just a little something to let me know she thinks of me often.  Im completely speechless and in awe.  It is so beautiful.  And Bella has not removed herself from it all day long!

 3.  I woke up this morning to find it had frozen outside and my hibiscus plant my Nanna gave bit the big one.  Im so very sad about this.  Does anyone know if it will come back next year if it has frozen???  Im so sad.

 4.  I love the way the sun hits frost and makes it shine.  My porch looked pretty this morning.

 5.  My inscence holder and some burning sage, both gifted to me by two lovely ladies I met right here on this very blog.  Love this community!  It makes my house smell so good :)

 6.  Free people catalog.  Although I can never afford anything from here, I still love to oooo and ahhhh over all the pretties, and pretty girls, in the magazines...

 7.  My pony palm I got from my aunt, that I was smart enough to bring in a few weeks ago.  Im loving watching it grow.

 8.  Pieces of a custom christmas present I made.  Sorry I cant show the whole thing.  Maybe one day...

9.  My pine cones.  These were my moms.  She loved pine cones and gave me a love for them since I was a little girl.  We used to have a tree in front of our house that my friends dad planted that grew them.  I loved hunting for them with her. 

PEACE,
Laura

Thankfulness >>>

This morning I feel like pondering on a few things Im  truly thankful for this year.  Besides the obvious of family, good health and my furry friends, among many other obvious ones.  And instead of just making a list, I think Ill go a bit deeper into each one.
 
The process of healing:  This  past year has brought many ups and downs.  The biggest down being losing my father by his own will.  Its only been a short 4 months, and I already feel like Ive been through so many stages of the grieving process.  From denial to anger to sadness to forgiveness and acceptance to blankness to fear to longing... The list goes on.  The process of healing has been much different from when I lost my mother.  So very different.  After I lost her, she was all I could talk about, for years.  It kept her close to me to always have her on my mind and on the tip of my tounge.  But with my dad, I find myself turning my cheek when I think of him, b/c of the circumstances.  But as I am learning to face my fears of his death, Im learning alot about forgiveness and thankfulness for what is left behind.  I am so grateful for all that both of my parents taught me.  I feel like they gave me all the tools I need to face this world head on.  They were such different people who gave me two completely different outlooks on life, and I think Ive walked away with the perfect blend of them.  Im learning that I can keep their spirits alive by walking my life in their honor as if they were still here.  I still want to make them proud everyday.  This thankfulness I feel, the process of healing, is a long and complicated one to spell out, there are so many fine details of it, so this is just a bit of what I am learning.  And the road has not ended, and wont until I take my own last breath.

My husband:  This one would appear to be an obvious one, but this year has proven his love more so than ever.  To be honest, the first year or two of our marriage was pretty hard and rocky, and we almost lost each other from stupid behavior.  But in the past 4 years, we have gone through so much.  And the past 4 months, James has become the husband I could only ever dream of.  After the loss of my dad, James stepped in and took care of everything.  I mean everything.  He called every person for me, he took care of every bill and company that needed to be contacted about dad's estate, he has been by my side through the whole process, physically and emotionally.  He has been the one to handle everything out at my dad's big empty house, from organizing, cleaning, going through things, helping sell some stuff to be able to pay his taxes, etc.  He has been more than I could ever ask for.  Otherwise, Id be doing it all alone.  And believe me, its an overwhelming task.  Some amazing things have come from this too.  Seeing James in the light has made me all the more confident that he is going to make an amazing dad.  It has shown me his heart so much deeper than I knew before.  And it has opened up the door of conversation of us having kids soon.  (we are both fearful of this next phase in our life, but this I think has shown us both what we are truly capable of).

The gift of choice:  This one also ties in with my healing process of loss.  I ever so clearly have seen that we have a big gift of choice in this world.  Everyday we wake up, we have the choice to wallow in our self pity from the things we have experienced in this lifetime, or we have the choice to stand up and learn from it, and change ourselves for the better.  I see so many people around me use their past as an excuse to self hate, to fall down and feel like they have to stay there, or that they deserve to stay there.  This is not true.  Each of us have something beautiful to give this world.  And I think that the people who have had the hardest past, could easily be the ones to give the most.  To learn from what has happened in your life and make sure it doesnt happen again to your children or those you love around you.  You are not your past.  Your past does not define you.  And it is your choice how you allow it to contribute to who you are today.  It is your choice to eat what you eat, to drink what you drink, to wear what you wear, to be nice or hateful, to cheat or not, to get high or not, to love or hate, etc.  We all have this beautiful gift of choice.  And just because you made the wrong choice yesterday, doesnt mean you have to make it again today.  Each day we have a choice.  This is an amazing thing.

This online community:  Ive said it before, but I really really do love this community I am a part of.  Through this blog, facebook and twitter, etsy, all of it!  I have met some of the most genuine friends through these online outlets.  Only if we could be real life friends, or should I say face to face.  I love that we all inspire each other.  I love that I am able to chat about likeminded things to girls half way across the globe.  And I love that we can support each other, emotionally.  I love that I can use this space to share a more personal side of myself and not feel ugly or exposed for doing so.  You all have been like a big comforting patchwork quilt to me.  In some of my darkest moments, you have lifted me up, and I am truly thankful for that.

Seeing my hard work pay off:  This has been a big one this year.  From starting my new line Roots and Feathers to becoming the featured seller on etsy.  Among so many other triumphs.  This year has proven to me that my hard work really has come full circle.  The past few years I have poured myself into my creations and worked diligently everyday (too much at times I know)... I am so thankful to those out there that have made it what it is.  I could work all day long, but if no one bought anything, I wouldnt be able to do what I do, so thank you! 

I hope everyone has a blessed Thanksgiving holiday!

PEACE,
Laura