NEW MOON INTENTIONS
Since we are still in the energy of our second beautiful new moon of the year, I spent some time this morning with my New Moon Journal from Aquarius Nation (I love this thing). I wanted to last night, but after eating three tostados, I was feeling a bit of a food hangover, and James was home with the tv on... so I decided to wait until this morning when I had nothing but the quiet silence of the early morning. There is such a special feeling around a new moon. I'm a list and goal oriented person (even though I'm too scatter brained to remember to look at them after making them)... but the intention is there... and something about physically writing things down in this manner tend to make them stick for me. Plus I get to reflect back when I sit down to make my next new moon intentions, and see which ones have already manifested, or which ones are the works, or which ones are still taking time to grow... Such a fun process!
I have been working my little tail off this month, and I have decided to take some time off this weekend to clean my house and get things back in order. Create new space that feels alive again. And I think Im going to start that process today.
Happy New Moon! (for info on this moons energy check out this post on the bohemian collective)
CELEBRATING THE BIRDIE
On Monday I got to celebrate my girl Bird's 30th birthday with her. The perfect excuse to get all dolled up since we were going to meet for sushi. (real outfit post coming soon, I haven't even had time to get them off my camera yet) We had a really nice dinner with the yummiest sushi. Then we went back to the coffee shop she works at in our home town to have some drinks and do karaoke. I never in my life thought I would actually do karaoke, even that night I had made up my mind that I was not brave enough. But alas, with a few drinks and some coaxing I found myself up there sandwiched between my two friends belting out Garth Brooks, ha ha! And I had so much fun doing it! Luckily it was in the 'safe bubble' as they were calling of it, of just her friends and co-workers. So even though I got some rad pics of my Bird wearing an afro wig while belting out her tunes, I can't share those photos! And no one got a photo of me, which Im actually kind of sad about b/c it was a landmark in my life, let me tell you. This night also truly made me realize how much I miss my time with friends, b/c it has been slim to nothin' lately. Oh, I also had my first Mai Thai, so there was more than one first! Yay for firsts!
Oh yeah, and one of the best things that came out of my job at the restaurant was making friends with this girl. The girl who at the time thought she couldn't make good friends with another girl, and I won her over. ;)
A WALK DOWN MEMORY LANE
As embarrassing as a few of these may be, I thought it would be fun to take a walk down memory lane. I love old photos. Like, so much. Pretty often I like to just sit and look at old photos, mainly when I want to connect to my parents or the feeling of the past... This time I was wanting to find old photos of all my different hair styles. I could not find them all, but I found many. A few ex boyfriends are in the mix, but that is a little inevitable when finding old photos... And being the nostalgia hoarder that I am, I still have them all. There were a few that made me really upset and I burned all their stuff, ha ha, but the majority remains tucked away in old boxes.
I love the photos I have of me and my friend Rebekah from back in the day (the blonde in most of these). We were so inseparable then. We have grown up and changed so much. She was my one friend though that would wear black lipstick with me, ha ha. I have so many good memories of us together.
And can you tell that the green paisley shirt was one of my favorites? Its in 4 of these photos! And it is still one of my favorites! (although it is sadly falling apart)... Oh, and that photo with the 666 written across my chest, that WAS a halloween costume! Not my daily attire. I was a pretty dark teenager... dressed in black, listened to Marilyn Manson, was fascinated with vampires, witches and the likes. I should share some photos of my bedroom back then. It was actually a hilarious split of very dark goth stuff with a bohemian mix of vintage decor, photos of Kate Moss and Jim Morrison on my walls and Donovan vinyls. Over the years my love for the darker side of life began to fade away and grow into a much healthier way of seeing the world. Oh to be 15 again, no way!
Anyway, I hope you enjoy walking down memory lane with me. Even though I am such a different girl than I was 15 years ago, I will always love that girl I was and hold such a big place in my heart for her. It was during that time I truly learned to express myself in the way I wanted to no matter how the world responded, and trust me, I got alot of ugly dirty responses. But it was huge for me to be able to express it still. I had times where I tried to conform, and it never lasted very long and I always felt suffocated in a way. In a way, I learned about love through my non conformity as a teen and young adult b/c I learned that there were still many people in my life who loved me for me and could see past the way I looked to them at times. (most of these photos are pretty tame) I hope that I can always remember this when my own kids become teenagers one day...