PIECES OF HOME

It feels like its been oh so long since Ive shared my Pieces of Home series.  I actually have about 50 images already to share, but I'm going to break them up into pairs of 10, so look forward to many more.  You will notice on the bottom of the left sidebar, I have created Blog Topics.  I am slowly working on updating this list.  (It will take a lifetime to go through my whole blog) Since moving over to the new platform, I have to go in and re-tag each post to fit the appropriate category.  But when Im done, it will be super nice for you to be able to browse by section if you want, instead of sifting through the whole blog to find a particular post!  Yay!  ​

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1. custom prayer flag
2. miss bella
3. cheese board dinner
4. a book and woodpecker feather gifted from my sweet friend
5. my first pair of toms gifted to me from my mother in law
6. my ever growing plant
7. me
8. my fridge
9. surviving succulent
10. part of my sacred space

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Yesterday I made myself a batch of cookies, made myself a yummy dinner, and re-watched The Shift by Wayne Dyer.  It was just the reminder I needed.  I realized the reason Ive been allowing people to affect me and hurt me lately is because I have been operating out of a place of ego.  A place of possession.  It was nice to have a reminder of that, and give me back my perspective on things.  Its so easy to get wrapped up in our little worlds and lose sight of what is really important.  And this fear/anger place I was coming from this past week is not where its at.  I am done allowing people to take away my personal energy b/c they themselves cannot be themselves.  It is their journey to walk, and I hope one day they truly find themselves. ​

Today I am focusing on shipping orders and working on taxes.  Exciting, right?  ​

HEART & SOUL

I found this poster at a local thrift store and just about squealed when I did.  The image is an old photo of Josephine Street Cafe in San Antonio, and in the background you can see my mother, who was a waitress there when this photo was taken.  Before my time of conception even came about.  I have an old print of it that my mom had.  And I had no idea it was ever turned into a poster!  Hands down, the best thrift find Ive ever come across!  I wish my mom could see it, she would of been so excited! 

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Lately I have found myself with a heavy heart.  Even on my good days, they still feel laced with heaviness.  My husband has too.  I think we are both in a place of transition in our lives.  In our 30's, loving our lives, but still dreaming of other places and things we want to be doing, but feeling tied down by financial responsibilities.  And the weight of big, life altering choices, is very hard for both of us.  Neither of us are the type to just leap and see where we land.  We are both very goal oriented and security oriented.  Which is fine for now, since we are taking this time to just dream.  Dream of where we want to be, what we want to be doing, etc.  I know James is dreaming of the little girl he wants to have... Im dreaming of living out at my parents house, and the things Id love to do out there.   

Im also dreaming of things that are to come with this blog of mine.  Things I want to share.  And also dealing with the emotions that come along with having others mimic my sacred space here.  Im still learning how to cut the emotional cord that drains me of my energy when this happens.  Learning to see the value in the lessons these kinds of people have to offer me.  Learning the layers of myself that still need peeling from old and fresh wounds of this kind. 

Much deeper than either of these things, I have things on my heart that are just much too personal to talk about online.  But they are serious things I need to heal within myself.  Im pretty sure I am going to start some counseling soon for this.  It scares me a little to do that.  But Im realizing after so long of this part of me not coming to light, I cannot do it on my own.  I need someone to help guide me through it. 

One thing that has been kind of interesting lately is that ever since I did the releasing ceremony on new years eve with my dads ashes, I no longer dream about just him, or just my mom.  They both seem to be in most of my nightly dreams, just there, together, like they have always been there.  Its comforting to always see them together.  And since then, I have felt a huge sadness leave their home and property.  It feels like it is slowly being restored back to harmony, and the birds are the ones gathering and spreading seeds of new life.   

KARMA

THREADS // BLACK AND BLUE

velvet blazer - thrifted // shirt - gifted // leggings c/o chicwish // boots c/o blowfish // purse - thrifted // necklace - sun and glory​

(see blowfish's ad to the side for a discount!)​

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So, Im pretty obsessed with these leggings from chicwish.  They have them in purple too.  I have a deep deep love for blue velvet.  Always have.  Something about it reminds me of my mother, even though I don't remember her ever having anything in blue velvet.  But blue velvet leggings??? Love love love.  I enjoyed how this outfit came together with the different colors.  And it was fun breaking out some of my favorite old thrifted velvet pieces like the blazer and the purse.  Ive had them both for probably 10 or more years.  I remember finding the purse for 65 cents at a thrift store, back when thrift stores were still, you know, thrift stores.  It's crazy to walk into a goodwill now and see jeans for $19.99.  That makes me feel old, since I used to do all of my shopping for the new school year in junior high/high school and spend about $30 for the entire loot!  Anyway... I had some fun with this little outfit shoot, dirty hair and all.​

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Yesterday I spent the day shooting for the next mini Bohemian Collective lookbook!  Ill let you know when its going to be released... it was one of the most intense shoots Ive done, for fear of messing anything up, and having some odds against me.  But James came in and saved the day and helped me out with the last part of the shoot.  I know I am veryyyy behind on the blog over there.  Ive been finding it hard to find the balance between this space, that space, my actual work, and home.  After the mess I made ALL over the house yesterday for this shoot... today Ill spend some time cleaning up, and hopefully dreaming up ways to be a bit more creative with my time and organization.​

Also, I posted the first GIVEAWAY yesterday here on the new blog!  In case you missed it, our giveaways are now in their own little section up top.  Just look for the tab that says Giveaways on it.  From now on, all giveaways will be posted there and not here on the main blog.  So go enter and spread the word! xo