FESTIVAL WEAR // GIPSY DHARMA

Last week I shared Gipsy Dharma on The Bohemian Collective, and I wanted to share them here too.  They hand make beautiful leather footwear and clothing that looks like it is just made for romping around at a festival or hooping the night away. 

The boots above are my favorite ones, although they are hard to choose from.  I'm such a sucker for earthy browns though.  My favorite part is the organic free style cut on the top of them... such a unique touch.  I love that they look like they are very adjustable to fit any size leg too.  That can be such a problem with boots b/c every woman is built differently.

They also make these beautiful free spirited pixie like skirts...  Again I love the ragged edges...

Gipsy Dharma has a giveaway each week for a free pair of boots!!!  Go check out their giveaway page here.  Follow them on facebook for new updates too.

BREAKING SILENCE

I love the water by our house at sunset.  We came here after an emotionally upsetting afternoon the other day.  We came down to our river access to dump our trash and I asked James if we could take a quick walk by the river before we went back home... I felt like I just needed to be close to the earth a little bit longer before going back to our house. 

Earlier we went to my parents house to clean out a shed that we will be moving to our house, and almost immediately after arriving to their land I felt myself well up with anger.  James asked me what was wrong within a few minutes of being there and I couldn't even look him in the eye or talk.  I was boiling.  He finally stopped me, made me look him in the eyes and tell him what was hurting me.  I burst into giant tears and finally expressed how angry I was that we were selling my parents home.  Up till then, I had only expressed sadness, but this was sadness and immense anger mixed in.  I told him how angry I was that everyone in my life has told me that we need to sell the place and that we shouldn't live there.  I know that hurt him, b/c he is one of the people.  But I couldn't hold it in any longer.  He held me and let me cry on his shoulder for as long as I needed to.  As much as I didn't want to release that, it felt so good to. 

I took this photo down by our river on our walk afterwards.  I loved the way the sun was shining through my tear stained face.  The past year has riddled me with knowing what to do with my parents house.  My heart has been so torn with what I desire and what is feasible in reality, along with not being selfish with just my own feelings in the mix, b/c I am not the only person in my world.  Money has been an issue.  Emotions of my dad's suicide has been an issue.  But losing this piece of my heart has also been a big issue. 

People tell me all day long... its just house, your memories are in your heart.  just take lots of photos.  that was your parents dream, make your own.  the list goes on and on and on, and honestly... none of them make me feel better.  some of them even piss me off.  Im probably alot more attached to things than alot of people, I'm sentimental as $%&*.  Losing my parents was out of my hands, I couldn't control that.  And now even though I feel like I should be able to, I can't control this either.  It's been a long process, and as we really prepare to put the house up for sale, its becoming ever so real.  Moving the shed for some reason feels final.  It's a huge shed, and we are having to put up a good chunk of change just to get it to our house.  It feels like once we do this, there is no turning back.  I know that is not truth.. but there has to come a point where I feel content with this decision.  I need to get to a point where I can walk away feeling a weight lifted, a freedom, a release.  Right now, I just feel rage.  That is the best word I can use.  When I think of selling their home I feel my body clench and I want to put my fist through a wall.  (and this is not a feeling I feel about anything very often)...

This may look gruesome to some... but these are some treasures I found while exploring in the woods while we were there.  I had to check out for a bit while we were cleaning the shed, so while James finished up I took a walk through the woods.  Everytime I do, I feel like Im in a magical world Im just discovering for the first time.  I keep finding spots in the woods I never knew growing up.  Or at least don't remember.  And trees.  Oh the trees Ive been finding.  I could get lost in the woods for hours.  I feel like my spirit bursts open when I'm in them. 

I wrote this on my facebook wall the day we went out there...

"Since I cannot afford the dream of living in the magical piece of the world that was once my parents... Today I start the dream of manifesting a new magical piece of the world that I can call my own. I dream of one day living in a home surrounded by the woods with places of wonder that I can go to reconnect on a daily basis. A place where my one day children can roam and learn about nature. A place where I can feel truly free to just be. I may not be able to afford it now, and I am opening up a HUGE hole in my heart by letting my parents property go... but I will one day fill it back up with this dream of mine."

I feel like this is what I have to hold onto right now.  This dream.  There has got to be another side to this story.

PIECES OF HOME

a moment while cleaning house i caught a glimpse of this space and had to capture it

being silly with my girl... don't think she was having as much fun as me though...

just a pretty photo from my newly re-arranged bedroom wall

my candle from my bath time... always so inviting.

can't stop drinking this shake everyday... even though its like a dessert shake, im letting it count!

the yummiest package from Danmala Teas... ill share soon...

Skyline Fever's newest addition.  so in love with this top... (www.skylinefever.etsy.com)

the roadrunner ring i found in my mom's old jewelry box is now a part of my wedding stack...

i got my beautiful friend Kinsey's husbands cd in the mail, Josh from Coelesce... so beautiful...

always delighted when my hubby brings me or makes me a latte...

THREADS // EARTH TONES

This threads post has a few indoors and a few outdoors, just for fun.  Miss Violet was inside and thought it would be cute to snap a few with her in it.  Although she was not up to looking at the camera, he he.  This was from a few weeks ago already and its crazy to think we are already back up in the 70's here!

outfit details: hat - vintage // sweater - ooak from youngbirdart // scarf c/o sheinside // pants - hand dyed // shoes - minnetonka

I have had this beanie for ages!  Since my early teens at least.  Still love it.  And even though this scarf will already be time to retire b/c of summer coming up, I may use it in my house somewhere for decor b/c I love the colors in it so much.  Sadly its out of stock right now.  It might make a really great table runner for next christmas!  It is huge!  These pants were just some really basic cheap khaki pants from F21 that I ombre dyed.  I love the way they came out.  And you can't see the radness of this sweater in these photos, but there is a hand embroidered moon on the front.  Ive have worn this sweater countless times over the past month, mostly around the house b/c it is just so snuggly.

I want to say thank you to all of you who signed up with Tobi!!!  I got another 50% discount code and I can't wait to be able to use it!  Many people signed up but did not connect their facebook accounts, but I think you can do that at anytime to claim your 50% discount too!  Check out this post for more details.

In other news: There have been several new posts up on The Bohemian Collective!  Go follow us over there if you aren't already to get our latest blog posts!

My days have been a bit up and down lately... Yesterday was great until I went to my parents house, and I lost it, again.  Maybe Ill talk more about it soon... Right now, it feels too fresh...