This is probably the hardest post ive ever writen.  I have been avoiding getting online this week, but I know I cannot run from it forever.  And if I have ever been anything here online, its been real.  This is life...  I lost my daddy to sadness this week.  I have so many emotions right now that Im sort of blank and numb.  I feel sad, angry, lost, hurt, confused.  A part of me wishes I would have done more, although I know I cannot go there.  My daddy was one of the most quirky one of a kind people I knew.  There is not another one like him.  All he truly wanted to was to love someone and do things for someone and feel truly accepted for who he was.  Since my mom has been gone, he just couldnt fill that hole I think.  Im not really sure, Im left with so many questions.  The only comfort I can find right now is knowing that if he truly was hurting so badly, he is no longer suffering. 

I may not be very active online for a while.  Or I may.  I may find that working is one way I can keep my mind off of it.  I guess I will just be taking it one day at a time.  So if you see me all of a sudden posting, its the only way I know to keep going and not just let myself wonder around this house.  I dont want anyone to worry about me.  After making it through losing my mom 3 years ago, I feel like I just know I can do this too.  It hurts so badly, but I know I have been blessed with so many people surrounding me with love.  I have such amazing family and friends and they are all taking such good care of me.  Please just pray for peace.  For everyone who loved him and for his soul.

I have alot of people to respond to, and know that I will as I can.

Little black dress...

 After going to bed so late last night, we woke up to Nico chirping in our ears and the sun shining in so bright.  I just knew for sure it must have been about 10 o'clock or so.  Nope, only 8:30.  Geez...  ah well, Im excited to have my boy home with me today, even though I will mostly be working.  I may be putting him to work too :)  See the photo below of him?  Yep, that is him cutting chains for me!  I have conned him into helping me out this week.  Although he does have alternative motives.  He is saving up for something he really wants so Im sharing the profits with him just for his penny jar!  And its been a great help to me, plus I get to enjoy him next to me while I work, double plus!!!

 The other day I wore my little black dress I got for my birthday.  I actually havent had a 'little black dress' since I was about 15, mostly b/c I do not buy black anything anymore it seems b/c of our pets.  And of course, within about an hour I was covered in white fur.  But it is still so cute :)  A lint roller is must in this house.  I wore it with on of my crochet vests, a roots and feathers necklace and my thrifted mocs.  such a comfy but cute outfit.  And I painted my nails glittery for the first time ever this week.  Love it.  And, I ate sushi from heb, a quick okay fix for when you want some sushi. 


I also redecorated my window space in the dining room.  I love it, and I love the fact that I can change things around anytime.  I had to showcase my neil young album my bestie gave me.  This photo is making me miss my Violet, is that not adorable?  And the photo of Bella, she was just standing there with the sun shining on her and I had to run and grab my phone.  Gosh, Im a bit addicted to phone photos.  I never intended them to take over the way they have, its just so easy to grab my phone.

 Today is day 3 of having lactose free creamer in my coffee, and not really having any dairy at all (except for my latte last night).  I think I have an allergy to it.  Im not sure yet if that is it, but something has been upsetting me and Im on the path to resolving it.  So far so good, so it just may be that.  It was the first thing I was going to try to eliminate from my diet to figure out what is going on.  Gosh I love milk though.  Luckily I can still eat yogurt and some cheeses b/c of the probiotics and low levels of lactose in some.  I think Id cry if I had to give up all of my favorites...

Time to force myself to get up, eat, and get busy!  I had a goal of cleaning the floors (deep cleaning) while Violet was gone, but my time is ticking away!

PEACE,
Laura

New Roots and Feathers jewels...

There is a slew of new work in my Roots and Feathers shop, and still more to come, hopefully tomorrow.  Im in love with this last batch.  I decided to group them into categories to showcase them on here.  Although most of the dreamcatcher/mobiles are from the past few weeks, I dont think I ever really featured them on the blog.  Im quite in love with each one, and the fact that each one is one of a kind. 


There are lots of new bottled feather necklaces, and more to come.

I pretty much want to keep each of these earrings below..

and some of my favorite necklaces so far.  this line has really just blossomed from within.  i feel so at home with it.

Tomorrow I will be featured on one of my favorite blogs, and I cant wait to share!  Today was mostly just work, although I did squeeze in about half an hour of hooping/dancing to my asian roots music cd.  The best workout b/c it is so fun!  Ive actually sort of given up my real workout all together, its been over 3 months since Ive even touched my workout dvd.  eeek.  Its an ebb and flow kind of thing with me.  

James and I are being wild tonite and staying up past midnight since he doesnt work tomorrow.  He even made lattes at 9 pm.  

PEACE,
Laura